What Did I Say?

I feel blind
From time to time
And I can't stop...
Feeling for my next breath
Another thought;
Will I be alive to be 25?
Or will I die young
A victim to circumvent
The wrong time and place circumstance
Just another fling for life to boast
Knowing I have purpose
I see my life through the fog
If it would only get lighter
But the sun is gone
She turned her stars away too
Just like the back of a friend
The side you never saw of him
And maybe I screwed up
Certainly I count the weight
The strain I assisted in
Expecting more and getting less—
It's something more infuriating
Getting used to what I have to
God mend this torn up brokenness
I sleep tonight
Not guaranteed anything
Oh how wonderful it is
To look forward to nothing