Reactive & Lethargic Depression

Impulsiveness destroys structure
Loneliness swallows joy
Lying down alone for so long
These are the feelings I get now that you are gone

My anorexic lies have become obese
Shallowness reflects my image
I constantly ask myself how
It’s because I’m anti-me right now

Can’t I see past
Periods of time that dwell
Solving clues to celestial imagery
Why do I let it get to me

Wanting you to stop everything
Not being able to stand the pain
Burnt out stars solidify
Offerings for my soul to justify

No more happy feelings
Wishing for the cosmos to fade
Becoming the things I hate so dear
Reviving all the things that I fear